In constant awe & given yet another opportunity to get it right.

So it's the new year, all these resolutions and thoughts going through my mind.

Biggest one though is to be a better steward of those things with which I have been entrusted...my husband, my son, relationships, my business.

And that's where my title comes from today.

Every waking moment of our lives we are given opportunities.  These opportunites come in many forms like taking action, planning for future events, speaking blessings into another's life or being a blessing to someone.  So bottom line is I feel we are compelled at various times of the day to do something, again, take action.  And so we either do or we don't.  We are either obedient in that moment or we're not thus making us disobedient to that "thing" that we feel is directing us, calling us and compelling us.

It is in these moments of disobedience that I find God' repeated grace, mercy and love,  It is these moments that cause me to reflect on my hearts desire, my resolution for 2011. 

TO BE A BETTER STEWARD OF THOSE THINGS WITH WHICH I HAVE BEEN ENTRUSTED.

Example.

Yesterday I had to do some banking and I had this, excuse the expession, "funk" trying to rule over me.  You know, the kind of attitude that stems from the feeling of being overwhelmed, doubtful, fearful, etc.  So all afternoon I am fighting this funk and have to do this banking, which quite frankly, made me even more funkier in my attitude.  I'm struggling, wishing I was somewhere else, wishing I was not going through what I am going through and get out of my car to walk into the bank.  I smile at the person who greets me but it's one of those kind of fake smiles cuz really I'm crying inside and feel like screaming out but can't. 

You know what I'm talking about right?

And so I walk over to the area where you fill out you deposit slips and stuff and just as plain as day I hear God telling me, "Is this really any kind of way to act?...really?" 

Again, you know what I'm talking about right?

It's the loving, merciful, gracious voice of my Heavenly Father, my Abba Father, trying to get me to realize that being a sourpuss is no way to go about this day. 

Immediately I am convicted. 

I find myself standing right there, hanging my head, wanting to cry, and inside asking God to forgive me and this funky attitude. 

And all the scriptures regarding my current situation begin to go through my head. 

ALL THINGS ARE WORKING FOR MY GOOD AS I HAVE BEEN CALLED AND HAVE A PURPOSE...

GOD WILL NEVER LEAVE OR FORSAKE ME...

THE JOY OF THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH...

I WILL BLESS THE LORD AT ALL TIMES, HIS PRAISES SHALL CONTINUALLY BE IN MY MOUTH...

PRAY WITHOUT CEASING...

TO WHOM MUCH IS GIVEN, MUCH IS REQUIRED....

GOD IS ABLE TO DO EXCEEDING, ABUNDANT AND ABOVE ALL I CAN ASK OR THINK...

I stand there trying to keep it together for I am so ashamed of this funky pity party that I have been partaking of the past couple of hours.  Lord forgive me for not being a good steward over my relationship with you....forgive me for not rejoicing in my blessings in spite of the things in my life designed to make me stronger, better.

And then He went and did what He always does. 

He puts me in a situation where I am once reminded that my life is not my own, that I have a divine purpose and that none of this is really about me but all about being a vessel of His Love. 

I walk to the counter, meet this wonderful person Patty (who ends up being just the sweetest person and beautiful woman of God!).  In the next 10 minutes, Patty and I have what I like to call a DIVINE APPOINTMENT.  You know, one of those chance meetings when you walk away being reminded of how good you really have it, how blessed you really are and how merciful and gracious God ALWAYS is.

And that leaves me in awe.

In awe because I have been given, for the gozillionth time, yet another opportunity to get it right.  To get it together.  To see that my glass, with all of it's chips and smudgy fingerprints is not half empty but rather half full...actually my cup runneth over. 

I have once again been forgiven and released to walk in freedom and liberty and given another opportunity to get it right.

So today I just want to encourage you to move past the funk.

Release your doubt and fears.  Visualize if you will, me giving you a great big hug and telling you it's gonna be alright.  God's gotcha, all things are working for your good, He will never leave or forsake you.  You have a divine purpose, you will fulfill it!  You are blessed to be a blessing.  You are precious, you are beautiful, you are fearfully and wonderfully made.  You can do all things!  You are intelligent, funny, articulate and more than a conquerer!! 

You too, are forgiven and been given yet another opportunity to get it right

You are aaaaaahhhmazing.

You are loved.